a lot of the time, i’m either busy doing something where i literally cannot respond or overstimulated.
when i’m overstimulated, i physically cannot talk or barely register what someone’s saying. i also have trouble understanding out loud speech for some reason, where i’m listening but can’t process the words.
when my sister asks or says something, i often ask her to repeat it because it’s a lot of information. she says something like “never mind, you don’t care anyway, it’s not important” when i ask to be repeated.
she doesn’t care when i told her why i need it to be repeated.
she also thinks i’m mad at her all the time, gets frustrated when i don’t talk (because im incapable), and starts talking badly about herself when i don’t laugh at her humor (which consists of loud screeching and tiktok “brainrot” words)
since then, i decided to feign laughter so she’ll not think i’m upset with her.
i do try to be there for my sister, but there’s times where i cannot or just can’t talk.
Pay attention to her “bids for connection”. When she asks something, even if it is something simple, such as a request to look at a meme on the phone, try to accept the bid and do look at her meme.
Also, why not just ask her? “Hey sis, I see that you are unhappy with the way I treat you. I am sorry, I will try to do better. Can you tell me what it is that you want me to do more?”
Seems like she really likes you but she is not feeling love from you. She wants that.