As a disabled, immunocompromised person living in make-believe no-Covid world amid revolving door poverty, an active genocide and increasing eugenics campaigns globally I am finding less and less reason to continue Being. Tell me how you’re doing it, dear reader, so that I can make living in unending despair at all bearable.
Yeah, I feel that.
I think that the next step beyond that is creating a life where you have things that you care about and are working towards.
Gardening, pets, relationships, skill-building, contributing to movements or organisations - it’s going to be dependent upon your interests, needs, and capacity but if you have things that are counting on your or that you are building towards then they will keep you going in a way that’s more positive than Camus’ coffee.
Might be worth refocusing on the smaller things in life that enrich it personally while detoxing from stuff like mainstream media that serves to drag you down and feel helpless in the face of it as well.