I am a lazy failure who can’t do anything. Basic shit I consistently just… don’t do. Its embarrassing. I don’t even want to list all of it. I have hobby stuff I’ve wanted to for years that I’ve just never gotten set up. Homework? More like I’m not fucking doing that. I’ve been wanting to take steps for months to get myself on hormones and get clothes but have I done them? No? Of course not, because I’m fucking lazy. All I do is rot. Its been this way for a long time, I can’t even remember when the last time I didn’t struggle with this. And it doesn’t feel like its getting better. If it really is my autism I’m not sure how it ever can get better.
If you decide to look into it, just be aware that it may take a while to find the right meds and dosage that works for you. I was so excited to finally have an end to this problem after hearing so many people talk about how miraculous meds were for them, but it took me a few months of trial and error to find the right dosage (something that I think I’m getting closer to but we’re still figuring it out). They do help but don’t get your hopes up expecting miracles (like me, stupidly).