It’s been a slow trickle ever since COVID started. Just progressively losing any hope of having a good life long term. Hormones got banned in my state and I feel really dysphoric. The people in my life don’t care about me. I could die right now and I don’t think anybody would even realize for a few weeks. Idk man, what’s even the point anymore?
Your death is their ultimate goal. Every day you stay alive is a small victory, even if it doesn’t feel like it.
yea man, i just wake up everyday and move throu life just to spite people that just want me to give up and die, i dont have any other motive…living in itself is silly, but sometimes u have to cancel that reasonable part of ur brain and chug through life like any moving piece of meat created on this earth
One foot in front of the other. That’s all it takes to keep going.
Keep your chin up and your back straight. Eyes open.
Those are the things I made mantras for myself to get through dark times. And I’ve been in the dark a lot. I will be again, too. And that’s ok. You just keep going, that’s all.
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Otokonoko pharma?
How much do they typically cost? Money has also been a limiting factor, but thank you for telling me about that place
It’s $100-120 iirc, but they last a long time. It’s been so long since I got mine I even forgot how much it cost, but I bought it about 8 mos ago and still have a good amount left.
When all else fails, survive out of spite.
