My sister is going to get married soon,but that’s about it

I have a ML friend IRL that I can talk theory with, its very nice

I have stopped drinking alcohol. The last time I drank alcohol was to celebrate Gorbachev’s death lmao.

I’ve also managed to translate several Android apps to Spanish, and now my friends can use those apps thanks to that :)

I’m feeling confident in my long term abilities. I am conducting some operations to gain money and lay the groundwork for organization and while not much is happening in the now I am very optimistic of where my life could be in 1, 5, 10 etc. years. It feels good to feel more like an adult, like the heroes I always aspired to be, and less like a child who doesn’t know what they’re doing. I still have gaps in my confidence in short term day-to-day scenarios e.g. talking to a merchant at my delivery job and stumbling on a word and overthinking it, but I’m laying groundwork to not be a dweeb and it’s not getting at me to the core like it once was.

Also, I felt a nascent distance between myself and my best (and only) friend and it was worrying me about the future. But I talked and it went very well. Confronation and being real is so much less scary and so much more rewarding and less hostile than I think we build up in our heads sometimes. Definitely trying to transition towards being more direct and blunt.

Kudos for the gyming!! As I always tell myself: a fascist worked out today. Gotta keep pace with these fucks 💪 definitely felt good a while back when one of my regular merchants referred to me as “big dog.”

Congratulations, big guy

I’ve really been hitting my strides recently, perfecting my routine and getting a lot done. I have a schedule I’ve been trying to follow but I can’t ever seem to get everything done. But I had this sort of apiphany - If I do a little bit of everything on a rotational basis then I can make progress in all areas and not feel like I missed out on something. I feel really productive and don’t get burnt out or stuck doing one thing. It’s very liberating and I don’t feel like I’ve come up short at the end of the day with what I wanted to do. Also I’m finally joining a ML org so I’m very excited about that :)

Feeling really shitty recently, had a breakdown yesterday, HOWEVER, my birthday is in less than a month and I got decent placement in a smash bros tournament recently.

Well I am certainly struggling but it’s not all bad. I finally am trying to quit drugs and that’s a good thing.

I’m glad to hear about your progress in the party, that’s awesome

Honestly? None. The war continues to ravage my county, I’m sinking deeper and deeper into depression. I don’t think I can go on for much longer. I see no future for myself, nothing excites me anymore, every day is a chore and I go to bed hoping I won’t have to wake up.

My anti-sectarian reading group’s blown up. We’ve got over 15 people, all from different groups and tendencies, all reading together in one big session. They all seem keen to bury the hatchet and just unite the workers at this point.

Also, my efforts inside my union are getting big results. I recently sorted out the biggest turnout ever to my branch’s AGM. We had over 50 people turn up, about half of which were coming down for the first time ever. We’ve since organised a bunch of actions, including a big, city-wide outreach session we’re doing to promote the Enough is Enough campaign, which is going down on the 12th.

i’m making new friends and putting myself out there more

Nothing…

Glad the gym is going well, I really gotta take some inspiration and get back at that very soon.

Good things wise I’d say the fact that I’ve finally gotten a new doctor is the biggest, hopefully I can start improving my health and address my attention and dysfunction issues. Really need to quit vaping/smoking weed, tired of ruining my lungs and throat.

Also this weekend I’m going clubbing for a friend’s birthday which is exciting cause she never wants to go out usually lol. I’m also going for drinks with this girl I really like and haven’t seen for most of the year due to various circumstances, so I hope that goes well.

Pretty much nothing except wine

Simple things.

I’m eating better. A bit more veg and salad. Fewer processed foods.

And I’m able to enjoy reading fiction in Spanish now. I love reading fiction but cannot easily justify the time spent on novels. If I read in English, it’s either theory or for work. But I told myself that I could read fiction if it were in another language. So I started learning Spanish. And at the start of this summer I got through my first full novel. I’m on #4 now, and while I have to check the odd word, I can more-or-less breeze through (at a slower pace than I read in English). So now I can read fiction and improve my Spanish at the same time. It’s been fun, but it is a bit of a chore in the middle, after you’ve learned the easy bits, but before you can fully enjoy native content.