Pretty much the title of the post. I started watching porn at a very young age (12 I think) and stuck with it for 13 years. Without retelling my entire life story, porn is the only sexual outlet I have.
I wanted to quit for a while now due to ethical (I don’t think I have to elaborate how fucked up the porn industry is to anyone here) and psychological reasons but so far it always ends in me quitting for a few days and then returning.
I want to stop, I can’t call myself a communist while engaging with something that is so vile and opposed to communist principles but I don’t know how to change my habits in a way that allows me to permanently quit and satisfy my urges in a different way.
Maybe once I continue with my masters degree. Currently there isn’t anything to study for since I am writing my bachelor thesis. Study groups are a possibility but I wouldn’t count on it. I noticed that most people who study the same field as I do have very different interests. I am a giant fucking nerd studying a field that has very few nerds in it. But I will keep an eye out once I get back to actually studying.
Kind of. There was someone who was intrested in joining the local group I am trying to build but so far there was nothing more than a general interest in it. Beyond that there hasn’t been much but to be fair I don’t know the boardgame group THAT well yet. So this might be an avenue worth exploring more.
Beyond that I forgot to mentoin that I also tried to give online dating a shot. But the reults were disapointing. Quoting myself here:
Online dating is very…inpersonal. Because of this it’s highly flawed. When two people meet IRL there are pre-existing social rules one must follow which helps facilitate normal relations, it helps people tune into each other and connect. Online this doesn’t exist. The online etiquette is of distrust, shock and awe, and 30 second attention spans. This is not an ideal environment for people to connect in. Perhaps the attention issue comes with the nature of the internet what with the data connections being so fast, but the distrust and shocking nature of the internet is entirely by design of the overall mentality of society right now. All the internet is really is our minds speaking to one another through text. Even the 1% are here, the bots I think perfectly represent them. Robotic, parasitic, anti-social. They prey upon human interactions, revolving around our behavior. Perhaps one day the internet will be a place of casual conversation between mutually benefiting humans and all of this nonsense will be a thing of the past. This is not the case today though. Regardless, love is more than simply communication. Yes we must communicate, but think of the animal kingdom for a second. There is sight understanding their nature, their behavior. There is smell, pheromones play an important role in all reproductive cycles. There are shared physical environments and experiences which build history and chemistry between 2 people. IMO, online dating is doomed to fail. I think only when we develop trust for our neighbors can online dating play a role, likely in GPS-linked apps like today except instead of sending d pics being the norm, inviting one to coffee is.