I got in the habit of nurturing that monologue to punish myself for not measuring up, as like self-punishment in order to apologize? it’s so corrosive, I can’t stop it now and it’s eating me alive 🥴
Mood. It’s so bad that even here - where I can rationally understand that I’m much more likely to find things in common with people - I feel like there’s no point in posting because the things I say have no value and people won’t like me. Lmao, it’s pathetic typing it out.
I got in the habit of nurturing that monologue to punish myself for not measuring up, as like self-punishment in order to apologize? it’s so corrosive, I can’t stop it now and it’s eating me alive 🥴
Mood. It’s so bad that even here - where I can rationally understand that I’m much more likely to find things in common with people - I feel like there’s no point in posting because the things I say have no value and people won’t like me. Lmao, it’s pathetic typing it out.
It’s not pathetic.
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