Look, I know I already made a post about this here and it seems like I fixed it, but I kind of didn’t. Someone on that post commented that I should just read with one eye closed and that should fix it, but I failed to mention that it just doesn’t make sense… Mentally.
I’ll read a sentence and it just won’t make any sense to me. I can recall a time where this happened and it was a sentence along the lines of “She was taking out the trash.” Or something like that, and I remember it just didn’t make sense. I know I already said I don’t think this is Dyslexia in the last post but I’m kind of starting to think it is.
I do this thing with numbers where say it’ll be a number like 76 and I’ll think it says 67. I’ll read it as 67 and think of it as 67. This happens a lot and actually fucks up my math grade sometimes If I don’t catch myself. I also have trouble pronouncing names or words as well which I believe is a trait of dyslexia.
I also do the following frequently:
Difficulty summarizing a story. Difficulty doing math word problems (hence, reversing numbers and thinking sentences don’t make sense.)
I’m going off of a Mayo Clinic “Symptoms of Dyslexia” website in teens sooo.
But I’m not a doctor and I’m kind of iffy on self-diagnosing 'cause it’s like… Taboo I guess? Again I’m not even entirely sure it’s Dyslexia.
I think you misread what I said, I don’t have much problem searching for stuff, just that I go “autopilot” as well.
I know that it won’t get better on its own, most of my mental illness (depression + severe social anxiety) I get from my Mother so I’ve seen it first hand. I’ve always had really bad trouble adjusting and learning basic things (proper speech, basic math, reading.) At one point, it was so bad that my teachers wanted to put me on medication to “make me focus in class”. My family, especially my Mother always passed it off that I was a “late bloomer” and always saying I’ll “get it sometime.”
I do online school as well, which I expected to be easier than going to an In-person-school but it was a lot worse because I’m surrounded by things I want to procrastinate with and get distracted with even more.
Yeah I have misread what you wrote, apologies.
It sucks to have parents who don’t take mental health seriously, I don’t know where that denial is coming from but I know its nigh impossible to go against. I hope you get to a place where you can heal soon.
You are not alone. Your struggles are real and not your fault.
Don’t worry, happens all the time.
Thank you so much, comrade. It’s so nice to have a place to talk about stuff like this and to have people relate.