For me this is painful.
I became a born again christian in my first year at University. I thought I’d found god…
Of course there was slight problem. I knew I was gay, and wondered what to do about it.
Nothing seemed to work, whatever I did, I was always gay.
Then it blew up in my face, and an incident occured at University. Shortly afterwards I walked away unable to reconcile what happened and being gay. I just wanted it all to go away and leave me alone.
Eight years later, I had the opportunity to sit down with a therapist and discuss what happened. She helped me through it, and I found an answer that made sense.
I stopped fighting being gay and came out.
My therapist was paid for by the company I worked for, who believed in gay rights. The company closed a long time ago, but they were called Digital Equipment Co. Ltd, a branch of Digital in the UK.
I’m not particularly fond of it. I usually only speak on Christianity, I was raised catholic so that’s my area to dunk on and to be honest, I don’t think there’s nothing there to benefit us, those groups that show up in prides and whatnot, that’s all empty, because at it’s core, Christianity as an institution was built like that.
But I get it? I kinda get why some people stick with it, for hope or a need of a higher power, so I don’t hold it against them. I don’t understand how they do it, but I undestand why they do it, it’s their life, I won’t fold myself to appease their religiosity, but I’ll respect it as long as its reasonable.