cross-posted from: https://lemmygrad.ml/post/3190048
I’ve been languishing in my comfort zone. Continuing to do so will have terrible effects for me. To quote Marx, I “[have] become a monster, a huge mass of flesh and fat, and [am] barely capable of walking any more.” Ever since the pandemic started I’ve become a terminally online antisocial weirdo who barely ever leaves my room, let alone the house.
Of course, in addition to the damage this does to my personal life, it also makes me non - potentially even counter - revolutionary. As someone who wants to be a communist instead of just some internet poisoned middle class dilettante, I don’t know how I can be expected to jeopardize the comfort of my parasitic labor aristocratic class position when I can’t even get out of my comfort zone enough to go outside, eat real food, and do even the barest minimum of light exercise.
Yoga and mindfulness exercises can be a good way to get more comfortable in your own skin. Being aware of your body and feelings might help you learn why you ‘escape reality’ by staying in your room all day. When you do get out of your comfort zone, try to find out what’s holding you back from doing it more often.
If you’re terminally online then it might be the case that you’re not allowing yourself to process your thoughts and feelings, because you’re constantly stimulating your brain with distractions. This can lower your tolerance to other stimuli, and make it more overwhelming to exercise or leave the house.
If you have the means, getting a therapist might be helpful in your transition to live a healthier life. Because not wanting to leave your room is a pretty clear indicator of being mentally unwell.
It’s a difficult journey that you need to take, you shouldn’t feel bad if progress is slow or if you lose some. As long as you keep trying, progress will come. I wish you the best.