When mine gets really bad, it’ll feel like a slow buildup of tension that is quickly released without my control. Almost like an attack. In the past, it’s actually felt like a shock as well.
But it sounds like NT people I’ve talked with don’t see it like that 🤔 and frankly neither does the internet at large 🥴
It’s paralyzing to me. Tons of pressure builds up in my core. As it builds, I’m able to think and do less and less. The pressure spreads to the rest of my body. If left unchecked all I can do is lay down and wait for it to go away.
I’m the complete opposite, I have to do something. I have to fix the feelings, usually in a super self destructive way
To me it feels like an inability to do something, like trying to click on a greyed-out text option in a game or something. It’d be like if you tired to move your arm and it just didn’t work and stayed still no matter how hard you tried, like being paralyzed. Sometimes it gets bad enough where it feels like completely panic where my brain is screaming at me to leave what ever situation I’m in and that’s the one and only option I have, although that’s rare. There’s always an aspect of fear to it, but only actual panic when it gets bad enough
I feel like I have learned helplessness preventing me from having normal panic now from 5 million undone imaginary homework assignments and texts i didn’t answer and fake cold war anxiety from being a neoliberal child so now I just shut down when I’m truly afraid. I don’t try to concoct a wild escape plan unless I can truly make a break for it like, hearing sirens and jumping over a fence, real escape. But concocting wild lies and explanations isn’t something I can do off the cuff now sadly.
Like you say its a build up of tension that gets stronger and stronger as I get more agitated then it hits a point and explodes into pure fear and complete paralysis at the top end. And I will experience this for something as stupid as calling someone
Paralysis
I get panic attacks when it’s really bad where my perspective zooms above my head like a drone shot
Anxiety is a monster
For me, it usually peaks with a feeling of imminent death in addition to the paralysis 😃
Oh I thought that part was just normal
Kind of bleachy like cleaning chemicals
Anxiety feels way better when you have a perfect diet and exercise sadly, felt better when I had more muscle and body fat!
I tried to ignore social anxiety and I got okay at that but in truly tense situations like presentations and interviews I’ve just gotten beta blockers laying around 😅😅😅 that way I can ignore and nobody else can see
Suffocation, paralysis
I’ve come to rely on visualization to help me cope with my overwhelming feelings, so for me, anxiety is like a set of reels in my chest, spinning at high speed to heighten the tension in wires spread throughout every muscle and joint in my body. It makes everything tighten up, speeds my heartbeat and breathing.
Sometimes when it’s quiet and I focus on my breathing I can make the reels slow down and get some progressive muscle relaxation started up.
I get social anxiety in my eyes sometimes. I cant make eye contact and my eyes itch like I need to cry and I blink lots. There’s no mental fear or faster heart beat just my eyes being dumb. its fucking annoying.
I’m not autistic but my panic attacks usually feel like some one is sitting on my chest.
I don’t experience anxiety very often but when I do it’s bad. I HAVE to do something about it I NEED to ease my anxiety somehow and usually these anxieties are based on insecurity so it tends to be begging my girlfriend for reassurance. This has only happened like twice in 4 years so it is thankfully not common. You must understand that if she is not available I will go to any lengths to contact her. The only time she has ever been unavailable at that time almost killed our relationship because I called her dad and sister trying to get a hold of her. Granted both instances of this sort of anxiety happened within a span of two months, my mental health was terrible at the time and it was my first time ever experiencing that sort of emotion but I don’t want it to happen again. I’m in therapy now, we both are, and things are ok.
Physically, I feel electric as well. Like I have a current running through me. It isn’t a shock but more like a persistent buzz. I’ll even sometimes feel physically numb. As if slamming my limp hand against a solid object wouldn’t even register.
I also feel similarly out of control, I know logically at the time that I’m taking things too far and every part of being is screaming to fucking stop but every second I wait is unbearable so another part of me will do anything to reach it’s conclusion. However terrible I might make that conclusion for myself in the process.
Looking back these are more akin to panic attacks but unfortunately that so the only way I experience anxiety. I don’t typically even worry about things until they are affecting me but I’m also ADHD so that’s probably why
All of this is so fucking relatable. I’m so sorry you have to experience how crippling it is as well
Hmm people have always told me I’m autistic for as long as I can remember, but I think there may be a bit of ADHD in me too