CW: Family
CW because some people have a hard time hearing about supportive families.
Before I was born there was a brief period where my parents were expecting me to be a girl, before being “corrected” by later ultrasounds. So they decided on a name, even before deciding on my later deadname. At some point they mentioned that to me, so later when my egg cracked I kind of already knew that there was a name for me, and I took that.
My stims mostly occur when I’m emotionally aroused, the most I notice stress stims and happy stims. I generally knead my hands, i.e., I open and close them repeatedly. My mood factors into this by how much I use gravity-defying behavior. So when I’m stressed I generally hold my hands down to my sides, but when it’s a happy stim I hold them up. Stressed and Happy also are different as stress causes me to completely tense up, while happy can make me be springy, almost jumping up and down. Apart from that I also do vocal stims, mostly short hums, sometimes melodic. One other sensory stimulation thing I like is blankets, so I always have a fleece blanket on the sofa, and I even have one at work.