WalrusDragonOnABike [they/them]

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Cake day: May 6th, 2024

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  • Honestly I don’t know why someone would transition if they weren’t feeling dysphoria, even if that’s a thing I’ve vaguely heard of)

    Sometimes it just seems like a difference in how people use “dysphoria”. Some people feel their feelings are not severe enough to count (so… impostor syndrome?). Not saying that’s always the case - I’m sure some people are cool enough to just transition because they want to despite social pressures otherwise. Either way, its not a good idea to define identities based partly on minimum levels of suffering or use that to gatekeep access to services, drugs, etc.

    Personally, I feel too out-of-touch with my emotions to call anything I experience either dysphoria or euphoria. Even pain from physical injuries (from stubbed toes and severe cramps to broken bones) is an emotion that confuses me. So, I sorta feel like I’m taking HRT on a whim even if I do know I do experience dysphoria on some level.



  • Thinking about these pictures of me I discovered a few months ago

    It was me at like age 6 in a long, flowing purple dress obviously just having lots of fun wearing it and moving around in it

    I haven’t looked through childhood photos in years, but don’t think I’d find anything I’m not already aware of.

    Like a decade ago, my sister was making a scrapbook for a school project. I didn’t see the whole thing, but she made a point of showing one of the photos of me she included: me as a child wearing stuff like a plastic princess tiara and necklace and such (maybe she was implicitly asking for permission but worded it as a “I’m doing this”?). I greatly approved of that choice.

    Took like another 8 years to realize I probably wasn’t cis. I still haven’t really come out to her (mostly just lack of opportunity), but kinda curious if she’s suspected something long before me.