I’ve been saying “Paw bee” in my head
30-something zebra lady from San Francisco - aspiring author - interdisciplinary nerd
I’ve been saying “Paw bee” in my head
For me, there were several separate threads that all came together at one point.
In middle school, I was envious of my friends’ artistic abilities and I resolved to get better at drawing. This was during the heyday of DeviantArt and so I made an account and followed my friends. Traversing through people’s profiles and what they liked, just randomly surfing, I discovered the work of Melissa O’Brien (“Frisket17”) and I fell in love with their entire oeuvre.
Then I realized why I was so in love with her work specifically: for the first time, I saw depictions that closely resembled the world that I had built in my head – a sort of sunny, tropical spinoff of Redwall. And then I was like, oh my god, it’s not just me! I’m not the only one who wants to see this sort of thing. I wanted The Lion King but in a city. I wanted the beach episode of Redwall. I finally had a word for it: I wanted furry. And it turns out I could draw these characters, too – I could flesh out my own world AND get better at art. Win!
I didn’t realize it at the time, but the reason I had created my own world in the first place is because I desperately wanted an escape from my real life woes about gender identity and my sexuality. I learned through anthro art the relationship between the furry fan and their fursona, and I was like, “I want one, too.” I REALLY liked the idea of being a person, but WITHOUT the BS human limitations that were contributing to my gender dysphoria.
So, I guess I stumbled upon the fandom initially because I wanted to get better at art, but the reason I stuck around is because it offered a safe space for me to explore identity. That was the real awakening.
This is wonderful! I get good vibes from Weaver.
I literally said “Woah” out loud when I read the part where this isn’t the first time this guy has been fined on this scale for speeding. Totaling nearly 280k euros over the past 10 years! Seems like a perfectly fair price to pay for the obscenely wealthy – we know just how exponentially much more money the richest have compared to everyone else.
But that’s the beautiful thing about art, isn’t it? Art is forgiving, and it rewards experimentation.
“Messy?” – sure, maybe, I dunno. But definitely assertive and deliberate, and kinda fierce! I like it