Depending on your situation try a week or two off the meds just to see what it’s like. Personally when I was prescribed medication in high school it was because I was consistently falling asleep in class. As such I really thought that was the only value I got out of the meds ( I.e. I didn’t do homework because I thought it was dumb but I needed the meds to stay awake through classes).
Once I got out of school I assumed I didn’t need the meds anymore and for the most part that was fine. I could just stand up during long meetings and I got my work done. It didn’t hurt that I was at a pretty small company and they never confronted me about reading lots of manga during the day (got through one piece that year).
However, though the troubles of my relationship at the time, struggling at a new job, and trying to lead a more fulfilling life doing more than watching tv and playing overwatch most days, I realized that I was constantly fighting myself to do anything more than the basest recreation and life necessities.
I only take 7.5mg of non-XR adderall a day but it makes a huge difference in being able to complete tasks at work and at home.
It’s easy to skirt by with ADHD even in our capitalist-hellscape (I’ve rarely missed major deadlines through stress alone) but to survive the dystopia AND enjoy your life and excel, the medication has proved necessary.
Idk about your psychiatrist but mine is basically a pill vending machine and if it was purely up to him I’d probably had a script for 30mg xr with a 5mg “booster.” My advice is try low doses if you want to avoid the amphetamine feels and once you’ve been on it for a couple months, take a few weeks off and see if you can notice a difference in your executive function.
Hope you figure it out! Idk how old you are but I’m almost 30 and just now started feeling comfortable with cooking a few staple meals (plus a handful of minimal effort microwave/toaster oven/air fryer/rice cooker meals).
I had a similar experience with XR pills which is why I don’t take them anymore. Now I have some form of caffeine in the afternoon and that seems to do a good job maintaining the adderall for a few more hours. Caffeine alone barely does anything for me.