I had a presentation today. It went well.

It went… Way better than expected. It went really well, I felt like. I’m not expecting a grand grade or anything, but I feel like I definitely passed. To be totally honest, I feel like I passed with flying colours, but I also feel like I shouldn’t say that. I think I have some trouble being honest about my own abilities.

There’s this thing that I’ve been obsessed with for a very, very long time. I’m talking like a decade! Which I guess is really not that long, in the grand scheme of things, but still. That thing is “normality.” I really want to be normal.

It’s a bit weird. I just wish I was like everyone else. I feel like it’d be nice, but I always feel like I’m different, somehow. Like I think about things differently. I suppose everyone does think about things differently, though, which makes it a pretty normal thing. Turns out I am normal after all! Which makes me happy.

On one hand, I’d be happy to get a good grade, because of course I would. On the other hand, I would really rather not stand out. I don’t want a good grade, I don’t want a bad grade, I want an average grade. Is that weird? I feel like that’s weird. I feel like the normal thing would be to either want a good grade or not care about the grade. I feel like both of those would be pretty normal.

I don’t know… Regardless, my presentation went well. I was so nervous beforehand, but as the time drew near I relaxed. It’s always a weird feeling, but it’s always the same. When the spotlight shines, I’m somehow always relaxed. I’m dying right before, though! My stomach was churning and turning and all the other words that would apply in this situation. It went well, though. I think that’s good, overall.