Some background info: dad got cancer when i was 12, watched him take his last breaths on a hospital bed in the living room, with my mom and sister there. i smoked weed for 18 years but quit last year. I used to have every now and then panic attacks thinking about my existence and what it is and how it will end.

Lately though i’ve been having all kinds of shit going through my brain. It’s unseasonably warm here so i freak out about climate change, ive recently started to be scared of house fires for no reason, and then last night i was on some anxious shit thinking about burglaries. Me and my gf have cats so i get anxious about them if im not at home. I’ve really become a slight agoraphobe. Was kinda wondering if anyone else had this stuff happening to their brain and what could help it. It’s really ramped up the last month or so. I am trying to tell myself that im worried too much about things that probably won’t happen but it’s hard to trick yourself.

I’ve been looking up therapists, there’s CBT which looks interesting i guess. Part of me just wants a pill to make it all go away.