Went to a beach with some friends and wasn’t able to wash my feet off before getting in the car. The car had rubber mats and I just had to hover my feet above it but even that was miserable. I don’t remember being so bothered by textures as a kid, it often feels like that symptom has gotten so much worse. The car ride was only 10 ish minutes but it felt like forever and I had to hold back tears for a good portion of it.

Now I am isolating myself from everyone and my girlfriend is bringing me food from the kitchen. Everyone other than my girlfriend thinks I have a headache. Idk what I’d do without her. The sourdough toast and stardew valley are making me feel better as well.

Idk how to end this I just needed to get it out yk?

  • LordGimp@lemm.eeEnglish
    2·
    2 months ago

    Can I ask why you didn’t just brush off your feet? It takes a couple minutes and you can do it in the car. God gave man vacuum cleaners specifically for cleaning sand out of cars.

    • ComradeSharkfucker@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
      11·
      2 months ago

      Understandable response but it was because my feet were still wet and the sand was also all over the floor where I would have put my feet. Brushing them off wouldn’t get all the sand

        • ComradeSharkfucker@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
          6·
          2 months ago

          Its possible, I was filled with panic and not exactly thinking straight. I chose a path of action and stuck with it I suppose.

          I must say though I think you aren’t getting how overstimulated by this sand I was. I wasn’t upset other people weren’t having my problem, in that moment other people didn’t exist to me. I was much to focused on not crying

            • ComradeSharkfucker@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
              5·
              2 months ago

              Oh god I used to have a nightmare of a stutter as a child and I feel your pain. I used to just stop speaking when I could feel myself about to stutter. Thankfully it was a physical impairment that I have mostly fixed but it still slips out

              • LordGimp@lemm.eeEnglish
                1·
                2 months ago

                I’d love to continue this conversation but I am being censored by the mods here while my abuser is left alone. Wonder what that’s about.

                • ComradeSharkfucker@lemmy.mlOPEnglish
                  5·
                  2 months ago

                  Tbh you were being a bit of prick but I chose to ignore it out of the assumption that you simply didn’t experience a similar struggle as me

                  I also just dont enjoy being hostile

                  • LordGimp@lemm.eeEnglish
                    1·
                    2 months ago

                    What a surprise. A neurodivergent community that assumes you’re a prick instead of maybe a little neurodivergent themselves. It’s almost funny.