People are painful to me. I find their presence painful. I’ve been this way since infancy. I created a suite of methods for keeping them away (methods like “passive-aggressive hostility”). These methods became deep habits. Later in life I hungered for company and couldn’t figure out why I was so bad at it. I just recently realized what’s up (thanks meditation). Do any of you relate?
I am antisocial by nature although I learned how to socialize " born an introvert learned to ambivert " it is simple my brother you just have to learn how to talk with people calmly also being alone is always better because you can hear your thoughts process life to make better decisions, people are always noisy and loud and mostly the majority of them won’t help you (that’s based on my experience alone tho because people differ from each other)