People are painful to me. I find their presence painful. I’ve been this way since infancy. I created a suite of methods for keeping them away (methods like “passive-aggressive hostility”). These methods became deep habits. Later in life I hungered for company and couldn’t figure out why I was so bad at it. I just recently realized what’s up (thanks meditation). Do any of you relate?
People are proximal! Maybe they haven’t reached out because they feel the same about you – “Man, I miss PerogiBoi! I know they’re around but they haven’t reached out to hang with our crew… they must need some space or have moved on”.
It goes both ways!