No job prospects. The work I do to support myself is come and go, and im probably gonna miss rent again. The older I get, the less friends it seems I have. None of my hobbies/passions excite me right now and just feel like a pain in the dick when I think about doing them. Every day is the same goddamn routine unless I go stay at my partners place.
It’s cold and I hate going out in the cold, so that just compounds stuff further. Everything is dead outside. I’m tired, im always so tired. I can never get enough sleep no matter how much I actually get.
Feels like I’m just existing and I hate it.
Ey, mid 30s too! I’m one year without booze, but if you can have a healthy relationship with it, no need to pile any guilt on yourself. Hope things look up soon, and glad you’re hanging in there!
I’m not hanging in there, I’ve just given up. There’s really no way things are getting better short of a miracle so I’m just accepting it and trying to enjoy what I can. I’ll be a sad bum working in retail and rent a basement from my dad forever. But it’s okay I got booze and video games.