Not sure if this is where I should post this. I just gotta put this out there, somewhere, anywhere.
My best friend since before COVID barely calls anymore. If I want to speak to her, I’m the one that has to initiate that conversation. We’ve gone many days between even a text, unless I again initiate it. We used to be so close. But now I see how close she is with her new friends and cannot help but feel left out. There’s so many times that I’ve felt left out, or forgotten about. I just feel so alone.
They all kind of ditched me to go to the casino tonight. We were all together and they just abruptly decided to leave. I’m not surprised as they excluded me for half of the party anyways. They can all speak English just fine but speak Vietnamese, which I can barely understand. I understand why they prefer to speak it, but it wasn’t always this way. They used to speak English so that I could contribute to the conversation, but now not at all (I’m not exaggerating)
I’m staying over at her place this weekend so I went back to her house alone. My eyes feel a bit raw from how much I’ve been crying since I got here.
So alone. So much for a big sis.
hugs
Try not to be too pessimistic. I’m 30. I’m currently making new friends left and right. Something which my previous therapist said was basically impossible. Find a better group. Hell, become a furry. No, seriously. Furries are cool people and eventually you’ll find one who’s a “connector” aka “the person who seems to know everyone and hooks you up with the right people”, and they’ll help you out. That’s been my experience so far. It took a little while, but eventually I stumbled across someone like that and it’s been a lot of fun and I’ve been getting to know a lot of cool people.
Edit: oh yeah, I forgot to ask: have you tried just talking to her one-on-one to see if she realizes that you feel like you’re getting left out? It may be that she didn’t even realize she was doing that.
I’m going to talk to her tomorrow, but idk at the same time. While furry stuff is not my jam, I get what you mean.