• anon6789@lemmy.world
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    1 day ago

    When exactly do you get to recognise yourself, right?

    “Real me” is a quiet introvert with no sense of self esteem and medicated but still existing major depression. So… never! 😅

    You guys get my professional face. I’m here doing my job. It gives me focus and purpose I need. I got all this research to share with you because I’m rather hermit-ish and would rather be learning than doing most things.

    When you guys tell me I’m doing good, I do believe you. But my wiring doesn’t let me tell me that. I don’t beat myself up about it so negatively anymore, but it keeps me pushing forward constantly.

    I try to make my shortcomings work for me. I’m glad I get to make so many of you happy. This is more attention and a bigger audience than I would have ever believed I’d have or would have wanted. But I’m not anyone extraordinary, I’m just trying to be the best me.