So I’ve come to a realization after about a couple decades of stress and shit that I probably have adhd. Obviously I don’t want to for sure since I haven’t been diagnosed, but when I’m literally yelling at myself to do stuff and can’t stay focussed on basically anything, and get extremely overwhelmed via information overload, etc. It’s a good idea to get checked out.

But…I don’t want the medicine. I don’t know why but I dont like the idea of it. I take other medications, heartburn meds, cold medicine, vaccines, etc. But I dont like shit messing with my head. I don’t even drink coffee (and I don’t drink or smoke either. Hell, im even reluctant to take painkillers) It causes such anxiety in me, I don’t exactly know why either. But the me who is shit and can’t focus and whatever is all I’ve known. I dont want to be someone else because I took a little pill filled with chemicals. It’s stupid. I know its stupid. If this was someone else talking to me I’d be saying “well You’d improve yourself and you’re just making yourself focus like a normal prrson.” But I have such a fear of…of whatever I fear. I don’t understand.

  • davel [he/him]@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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    10 days ago
    1. Get diagnosed first before fretting about options.
    2. Knowing you have ADHD doesn’t mean you have to take drugs. There are other options instead of / in addition to.
    3. Honestly yeah it’s a hang-up you’re having. I’m familiar with it because I had a little anxiety about it, too. Psychiatrists & therapists are also familiar with it.
    4. Maybe this helps a little: To the best of my knowledge, none of the ADHD medications have long-term effects, so even they were to “change you” in some way you don’t like, it’s not permanent, and will be gone in hours, days, or weeks, depending on the drug (hours, for most).
    5. A book on ADHD may relieve your anxiety, because it’s so common that they usually address it. You might try Driven to Distraction.