Waiting in the intake room. Probably got another 30 before I see anyone while my covid test gets done. Havent had a drink in 5 days, and am feeling pretty ok. Just wanna get back to the corgi and get on with recovering. Fingers crossed they won’t keep me too long, on account of i haven’t had any bad WD symptoms, just a little sleeplessness. I think maybe an outpatient thing would be best, but ill probably be here for a few days at least I’d imagine.
Sending you all, all of my love 
Commit yourself to going to the 90 AA meetings in 90 days.
You didn’t end up in a medical facility by accident.
There are LGBTQ+ meetings, Atheist/Agnostic meetings, young people meetings, etc etc.
Been going to the meetings for over a decade. Seen students, professors, cops, homeless, doctors, nurses, movie stars, artists, housewives, and every manner of neurodivergent come in and get help.
AA has a phrase we like to use; ‘Terminal Uniqueness,’ people who keep on using because they are sure that they are special and can drink safely even when their families, their friends, and every medical professional tells them to stop.
Thanks comrade, I’ll look into some stuff near me!
Everything AA and Meeting Guide are two apps you can download for free.
Everything AA has the AA literature, plus a guide for online meetings.
Meeting Guide locates AA meetings in your area [or another town if you want.]
You’ll hear this in every AA meeting; addiction is the disease that tells us we don’t have a disease.
Look at Heath Ledger/Whitney Houston/Marilyn Monroe/Amy Winehouse/Elvis. All were young, beautiful, talented, acclaimed, and beloved. Any one of them would be happy to trade all their money and fame for the chance you have right now.
Downloading now!
When you go into the rehab or the Out Patient Program, just look at your peers. You’ll see some people who are treating it like a joke, or a chance to get the family/job/courts off their back. They are already planning the next drink. Stick with the quiet ones who listen to the staff and take the suggestions. It’s much easier to win your battles when you have an army standing with you.
Might want to look into an evidence based treatment program instead, I’ve heard some horror stories about 12 step programs.
It can definitely help some people. It does come with the spiritual baggage though, which can turn a lot of people off (myself included). I’m not in recovery, but I went to every NA/AA meeting with my ex so I got to see it from the perspective of an outsider being inside.
I’d try narcotics anonymous too. I quit drinking over a year ago and though I wasn’t nearly as in to drugs by the end I found the NA crowd to be more relatable.
You can do this buddy. I believe in you