I can already hear it. I know, I know, doomerism has been weaponized in order to keep the working class undereducated, depressed, drugged up, inert, or dead, and I’m falling for bourgeois tactics.

At the same time, though, I look around (even from a privileged, western perspective) and see things getting worse and worse, daily. My life and country have both begun to collapse.

I’m pretty white-pilled when it comes to the human race on the whole, especially with China as the rising superpower, but Jesus. Global economy in shambles, political and civil unrest, and the worst existential threat in human history in climate change all at the same time.

What are the next 20 years going to bring?

I’m scared, and I have a really bad feeling about all of this.

    • SpaceCowboy@lemmygrad.ml
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      2 years ago

      It was the one two punch of covid then Ukraine. Watching the callous disregard for human life on both sides wrt covid and the government just choosing not to help and then watching corporate loans be forgiven really got me pissed. With Ukraine it was the first time I was old enough and savvy enough (with enough free time) to fact check the official narrative on a war.

      But what got me to overcome my anticom programming was after covid started and I was thinking during lockdown with a lot of free time. WRT covid I was lost for a bit then I stumbled upon genzedong when I had a guilt trip remembering the time I wouldn’t date a girl when I found out she was a stripper. Like I was polite as hell with her but I felt like I just couldn’t honestly pursue that relationship. And the way people judged me pissed me off so I got to thinking about the commodification of sex and I googled “why is sex work being normalized reddit” (I still thought reddit was “left”) and came upon genzedong. And the opinions expressed were so in line with my own that it broke down my anti-communist indoctrination. Like I do not hate sex workers, I feel they are kind of victims of a system that aims to commodify everything it can, and generally I have a humane approach to it, but I hate the fact that sex work exists (in a coercive way).

      But that just got me to actually read leftists and there is no other framework that addresses the problems I see so comprehensively. It literally explains pretty much everything. and it isn’t seen as like this dead body of work, it is a living, breathing, growing body of work. And it is beautiful

      Edit: just realized that’s not really the question you asked… that analysis came after I became a marxist.

      • CITRUS@lemmygrad.ml
        3·
        2 years ago

        Nah I think I got the gist. Same here with COVID and Ukraine, but weirdly never anticommunist. Somehow I got thrusted into communism after I became politically involved. But I was brained washed in the weirdest ways by the media. I identified as a liberal cause I thought they were socialists. When I was younger me and my friends memes about the Soviets but as a lighthearted thing. I’ve always wanted hear both sides of things (well my parents were divorced but in ablood thirsty kind of way) So I’ve always tried to learn about the USSR and China. Lucky I know lol.

        • SpaceCowboy@lemmygrad.ml
          3·
          2 years ago

          Ahh see I didn’t have that level of objectivity from a young age. I thought there are good guys and bad guys in the world, and the russians are the bad guys. But when I began to think of all the problems in our capitalist society and how they all were caused by teh same root problem and communism pulled that problem out by the roots, I thought, there’s no way they’re the bad guys. Somethings fishy, and genzedong and leftist twitter helped me figure it out.

          • CITRUS@lemmygrad.ml
            2·
            2 years ago

            Yeah after you get past the propaganda it is morbidly hilarious to see people get blood thirsty over people who risked their lives to better their people, like fucking Stalin! Imagine filling Lenin’s shoes, rooting out Nazi infiltrators, industrialize your backwards country, watch over the first socialist state, guide your people to free Europe from total nazification, be humble about it and then have your name slandered so some middle class white boy can make fun of you while he is in complete denial! It is crazy just how much they lie to you. We are at a point where all these “history” channels kids watch are an echo of propaganda but “since it’s multiple sources” it must be true. God it’s infuriating. I hope I can spread the good message to my siblings and peers, it’s easier to get people to comprehend when there’s not a text walk between them and it’s someone they trust. Rant over, lol.