Spent the last two years basically wasted. Surprisingly have moved up a lot in my life in that time, something to be said about the functional alcoholic.
I’m making this post because I feel like fucking hell, and I’m tired and it’s like every good feeling has been replaced by dog shit.
But I’m not like craving booze right now and so I guess I’m sort of not dependent on it at the moment. I’ve been active too, going to shows and parties and such. They’ve been dramatically less fun, but at least I’m not holed up and away from society like every other time I’ve tried to get off the sauce.
That’s nifty.
Probably will have a drink sometime soon, whatever. Just nice to prove I don’t actually HAVE to drink I guess.
Hell yeah dude
Idk if this helps, but (minor) anhedonia when you’re detoxing and getting sober is totally normal, your brain chemistry needs some time to refuckulate
Proud of you
Remember that sobriety is a process you have to learn and practice, not a rigid “100% flawless streak” thing overnight for the vast majority of people
Slip ups are normal too, and they’re not the end of the world if they happen, or an excuse to give up and spiral if you really want to get clean.
You got this 🚫🍸🚫
if my ability to feel good about anything comes back I’ll be content. It’s such a weird feeling. I had been getting some exercise these past few months, even if hungover or whatever, and i was starting to be able to get some endorphins from that as well
Now I’m just sore when I exercise. Getting nothing out of anything. Can’t even cum right either lmao
Alcohol is a messy a.f. drug but it’s thought to work on some opiod receptors as part of its action. Unfortunately they’re our shit feels nice receptors (disgusting simplification) and exercise, or rather part of the body’s response to it, works on that too.
God hates us, so when our happy receptors are active all the time our brain turns the volume down so we continue to suffer. Removing the alcohol means the volume on the reward pathways is too low right now.
Fortunately even people who blast the fuck out of those pathways with like heroine don’t stop them from coming back to a relatively normal sensitivity and usually pretty fast. So you probably don’t have to wait long before stuff feels good again and it definitely will happen if you just grit your teeth and rawdog life for a bit.
been there
have a sad cum bb
(sorry)
I’ve been trying to channel all my “damn I wish I were fucked up rn” shit into over exercising and chasing the endorphins instead to various success
I’ve slipped a couple times but I keep telling myself “you’re overall doing way better”
That doesn’t always feel like enough, but I guess you gotta just keep chipping away at it until it settles in for the long term